To a Life of Love

1) Today marks my 26th year on this beautiful earth!

2) After three years in the corporate world and 26 years of knowing that I’m not a corporate, 9-5, cubicle person I have officially QUIT!!!!!!!! My last day is January 31st.

There are three things I know:

  • it is your absolute right to fill your day with love
  • you deserve to have passionate, purposeful “work”
  • you deserve to wake up excited for each and every day

These things have been completely lacking in my life so I made a plan. Well, I’m taking my 401K retirement fund and running! (Disclaimer: I don’t condone this. Maybe I do.)

I’m choosing to trust what my heart is telling me and taking a huge leap of faith. I don’t know exactly what my future holds, but I do know it is going to be bright, amazing and filled with love!

I urge you to ask yourself. If you’re not happy with how you spend the bulk of your time, what can you do to change it? Hint: “nothing,” “I have no choice,” and “impossible” are not involved.

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The Spark of Authenticity

Well, I sure do feel better after my last post!! Lots of yummy yoga, deep belly breathing, mindfulness, setting intentions, fresh air, presence and having fun in the kitchen will do that to a girl. My inspiration and general excitedness is filling me up once again and it feels good and right.

I had a huge smile on my face on the ride home from yoga last night. I felt exceptionally calm and strong. I could literally feel the release of the worry, stress and anxiety. My creative mind opened and started exploding with ideas like kombucha that has been shaken a little too much. I felt the deepest connection to my authenticity.

Authenticity might just be my favorite word. I love everything it represents and how it makes me feel deep within my soul. It encapsulates everything I believe in the most. Which is why I was so excited was I when I saw that Authenticity was this month’s Self Discovery, Word by Word. SDWW is a blog series started by the lovely Ashley of Nourishing the Soul and Katie from Health for the Whole Self is hosting December. I’m participating for the first time after reading all of the beautiful posts from the last couple of months and of course, because I strive to be my most authentic Self every day.

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When the Channel is Blocked

I found the following quote in one of my favorite books ever: The Red Book: A Deliciously Unorthodox Approach to Igniting Your Divine Spark by Sera Beak.

“There is a vitality, a life force, a quickening that is translated through you into action. And because there is only one of you in time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and be lost. The world will not have it. It is not your business to determine how good it is: nor how it compares with other expressions. It is your business to keep it yours, clearly and directly. To keep the channel open” ~Martha Graham

I’m re-reading this fabulous book because I have a situation. My channel is blocked.

When this channel is blocked I feel lost, irritated and on edge. I start to question myself, get annoyed with others easily and wonder what the point is. I lose touch with my creativity and can’t find the inspiration to act or express my truest self. See why it’s a situation?

The silly thing about being in this place is that it invites you in and has that comfortable familiarity. It’s tricky like that. It makes you want to stay for a while and get settled in.

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Journals and Self Love

Hello lovies! I’m so excited that tomorrow is Thursday, because that means I’m one day closer to my trip to NY!!!! I’m originally from Long Island and am going home for a whole 10 days! That means one whole week of vacay AND I’m celebrating my cousin’s wedding AND I’m a bridesmaid. I can’t wait!

I have lots of exciting things on the agenda so next week should be a fun one to say the least. And a hot one I’m sure since I’ve been hearing horror stories of 100 degrees plus humidity. What’s humidity? I think I’ve blocked that out of my memory.

Last night I did something I haven’t done in a long time. In almost a year to be exact, and it felt gooood.

Get your mind outta the gutter.

I JOURNALED!

I never journaled every day or even every week, but only when I felt moved to write. Last night I had the urge so I dug out my little book and wrote and wrote and wrote.

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My Road to Health: How Raw Food Changed My Life

Two and a half years ago I was probably at my lowest point health wise. I had just graduated college, moved out on my own, and spent the summer living it up with my roommates. The shock of working full time, white not quite knowing if what I was doing was right for me was often balanced out by eating whatever the hell I wanted. Constant dieting throughout high school led me to go on a tailspin throughout college and beyond. Around October 2007 my two roommates and I decided that we needed to do a cleanse. We chose to do the Lemonade Diet, also known as the Master Cleanse, for 10 days. I had done this before but found it extremely difficult emotionally. This time I meant business. I knew that if I didn’t change my ways I would go on feeling the way I did forever. I was lethargic, unmotivated, uninspired, had digestive problems, and was just going through the motions. If “blah” was a feeling, that was how I felt. I needed a drastic change.

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Rock ‘n a Marathon

So, I’m training for a marathon – the San Diego Rock ‘n Roll marathon to be exact.

I’m doing this with Team in Training to benefit the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society in memory of my mother who passed away from lymphoma when I was five.  Knowing that I am playing a part in bettering the lives of others like my mother really does help when it’s 5:30am on a Saturday morning, dark out and all I can think about is pressing “dismiss” rather than “snooze”… accidentally.  Still, the fact that I’m training for a marathon is absolutely freakin crazy to me.  I remember 3 years ago I couldn’t even run for a minute straight and got shin splints attempting to work up to a mile!!!  Humbling to say the least.  On Saturday, I ran 18 miles!!  18!  I never thought in a million years that could be possible.  It is so fun to see that hard work and dedication actually does pay off.

Who knew?!  Still, Saturday was one of the most physically and emotionally exhausting days of my LIFE!!  I pretty much felt every emotion that could possibly be felt during those couple (ok, maybe more than a couple ) of hours.  We do our Saturday long runs together where our course is mapped out and aid stations are set up for us along the way.  Yesterday was the EPIC train run.

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Let Go and Go With the Flow

First off, Happy Mother’s Day to all the mommas out there!! Here is a picture of my mother when she was 14, wasn’t she beautiful??

I’m very blessed to be able to run the marathon in her memory and raise money for the The Leukemia and Lymphoma Society at the same time. I’m also very blessed to have the BEST grandmother (g-ma) in the world that raised me and taught me so so much. Thank you Gram for everything you’ve done for me!!!! Your support and encouragement to always follow my heart and do what makes me happy is something that I’ll carry with me forever. Love you!!!

I’m so excited to share some exciting news with you, but first I want to talk about letting go. It’s not rare for something to happen in life that throws us off course – usually our common reaction is to freak out, kick and scream, stomp and pout. “But, this wasn’t supposed to happen!!!” If something like this happens there are only two things you can do: change it, or accept it. If changing it is an option, then DO IT! Only we have the power to make changes in our lives, and we DO have the power, so take action and choose to be happy! If changing it is not an option, then the following helps to find some peace with the situation:

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Who Needs Prop 19 When You Have Sugar

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In honor of yesterday, Election Day, I have a new Prop I would like to see on the ballot.

Prop VI (Very Important) Federal law prohibits all manufacturers to put refined sugar in anything, ever. This extends to sugars derived from corn, or anything else that should not end up as sugar, ever. Violators will be issued a $1 trillion fine that will be distributed among organic farmers, school systems, all that is good, etc.

Forget Prop 19, sugar is the biggest, baddest drug there is.

Why? Because it is in virtually every processed food out there and because the majority of America is addicted to it and has absolutely no idea.

To truly understand sugar’s drug-like affect, let’s have a little biology lesson. When you eat sugar (or any refined carb that turns into sugar) your blood sugar level skyrockets. This signals your pancreas to pump out some insulin to get it back down and to get the sugar moving into your tissues. Excess sugar gets stored in your fat cells. At this point your blood sugar dips loooow and you CRASH! 3pm snoozies, anyone? Withdrawal, anyone? Holy moly, all you need at this point is some more SUGAR!! So, the cycle begins again. You may be thinking: “So what? If my pancreas is working properly, my blood sugar level gets lowered and all is good.” Wrong.

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Foodbuzz: Beyond the Food

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I am blessed. Truly.

I spent this past weekend at the Foodbuzz Festival eating amazing food, nurturing friendships, exploring San Francisco, and meeting beautiful, inspiring, talented and incredibly fun people.

Of course, I came away with a new perspective and was reminded of those little life lessons I sometimes forget.

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To say this weekend was full of food would be an understatement. There was SO.MUCH.FOOD. Good, delicious food. Food that I don’t normally eat, but I ate anyway. Honestly, my body was not happy (as my wonderful roommates can attest to), but I did not regret it one bit.

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Enjoying food, sharing food, making friends over food will sometimes do more for your soul than a day of “perfect” eating.

I was so happy to come home to a fridge full of veggies. They will always be waiting for me when I need them.

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Pass the Pie, Please

Once upon a time (somewhat) long ago holidays used to be a serious source of anxiety for me. Everyday was a constant battle which was “won” or “lost.” Holidays, of course, were a pre-determined lose. My disordered thoughts often rationalized eating everything and anything all day long, making sure to get in my favorite, yet “off limit” foods because the day was already a “bad” day. I would long for these days, little tastes of freedom, all while battling the guilt of giving in. How could I do that, I (who is truly not “I”) would think while the caring, real, truest of true me would be begging for some peace of mind, solitude from those thoughts and the permission to eat what I wanted.

What we need to hear during this time is not how to avoid overeating, ruining our diets, or gaining weight, but how to freaking eat the damn pie and enjoy it. So here is my Thanksgiving survival guide:

This is not your last meal, nor your only chance to indulge ever.

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